37: if i lose everything in the fire, i’m sending all my love to you.

I have finally started on my research paper! I DID THE COVER PAGE! and the first step to completing that paper – choosing the topic! awesome or what?! ok fine i know it ain’t. I have 2 days to churn out that paper and it won’t be easy. 3 cheers to sleepless nights

I have a rant, more like a complaint.

So we all know about HER condition. So she gets special treatment and all that shit. Lecturers are helping her integrate into the fucking system, that’s fine with me but why in the world does she get to do the final facilitation with a partner when it’s suppose to be an individual facilitation?! What the fuck is up with that?! Like I have been saying, time and time again, that since she is able to come in the ‘normal’ way, why can’t she do everything, assignments and projects, the ‘normal’ way?! Mrs Lam, our LOVING school director seems to be TOO loving towards HER and not to us. She claims to want to help HER enjoy this course as much as possible but what she doesn’t know is, by helping HER enjoy this course, the rest of us aren’t enjoying the least bit.

This whole dramatic turn of event has led to more of us wanting an alternative – to change course. if there should be anyone wanting to leave this course,  I feel that she wuold be the best candidate to do so.

*** now I’m feeling fucked up and guilty, with my insides turning and flipping -  having a roller coaster ride in my intestines, just because I’m being such a bitch toward HER! I’m trying really hard to not detest her but what the lecturers are putting us through, it’s making it very difficult to do so.

35:Christmas is almost here!

i have to get Christmas presents for many many people! if i have texted you for your address,please give it to me! it isn’t a scam!

MY WISH LIST YO! i will marry you if you if you are able to give me everything (as if anyone will want to marry me luh…)

1. OLYMPUS PEN E1!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. CANON EOS 500D!!!

3. Blackberry bold

4. The really nice purse i saw the other day at ion but forgot which shop!

5. horizontal eyebrow piercing

6. handstand and walk!

7. new LV!

8. A BOYFRIEND (realise this isn’t at the top of the list?)

damn. if only nice samaritans will donate to the ‘polly needs new stuff’ fund!

32: the writings on the wall

women can never understand men, just like how men can never understand women.

29: i can fend for myself.

stand chart’s over,legs are aching but it ain’t that bad. well i ran al the way and got a timing of 2 hours and 38 minutes not bad aye? haha oh well my plans for running in 2010 are as follows, sundown and safra 21km,and stand chart 42km and maybe in 2013 i wil be able to run sundown ULTRA MARATHON 84km yo! me is excited!

well kinda wasted away in school today, suppose to have the yearbook phototaking but it was cancelled so stoned in school from11am-3pm and went to look for jack and played a bit of pool till 4.30,headed for training but no one was there and since both of us aren’t training,decided to head home.met russell and shah in fc5! gossiped with shah till 6 plus!!!like omg right as if bitching from 1-3 isn’t enough??!! haha well it’s never enough is it?

missing someone is not about how long it has been since you’ve seen them or the amount of time since you’ve talked. it’s about that very moment when you are doing something and wishing they were right there with you.

I WANT A BOYFRIEND, ADRIAN AND JEROME COMBINED!

26: for what it’s worth,it was woth all the while.

stand chart tomorrow…feels more like a yearly routine than a passion right now…

me is bored at home. need to start on my research paper and my GEMS essay…but since i was bored….

day 19 : vicious apologies

AWESOME DAY! novend gig was fun!

soap and i got a little lost in bras basah,looking for odiocrib…we found it anyhow.caught monsters in living flesh and some day awaits! you guys were fucking awesome even thought SDA had some technical difficulty. <3 i fell in love with screamo today

we thought we could take a break from all that noise and HEAT and smell by taking a walk.on our way,we found a space and some boxes!i started swinging my bag and found myself spinning spinning SPINNING and FLOP!so we kept spinning and hid ourselves in boxes(the ones you put computers in!)! so fun k! i sat in a box and soap was draggin me around! WOO

boomz.after all that fun, we headed to plaza sing for dinner!

damn it.i kinda discovered over the past few weeks what love is. and i think i love you.

day 15: cast your fears aside

When you lose the one you wanted because he’s taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed, it’s exactly what’s screaming in my head right now!

when i cried in the middle of the night for the same damn thing, where were you?

day 14: SMACK ME!

I REALLY NEED TO GET DOWN TO DOING MY DIE(Drama In Education) RESEARCH PAPER! OMG singapore libraries are like…….limited…….omg i combed the esplanade library just now and couldn’t find any applied drama books! well okay i did but they are not relavent! and i found one! but the author isn’t one of the recommended ones! omg and i searched the library online catalogue! AMAZING they have one of dorothy heathcote’s books,AWESOME! but it’s on loan and HELLO singapore needs to expand the applied drama scene!

APPLIED DRAMA ROCKS!

day 13: nothing feels right when you are not around

something about me these couple of days,i seem to tear when i listen to songs that usually don’t mean anything to me…everything i do seems to feel wrong and nothing good seems to be happening! OMG like can somebody slap me?! i feel so heavy and lifeless when everything around me seems to be bright and cheery. WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME?!!!!!!!!!!!

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